TheAfflictedCellist

What have you done for me lately???

Tue, 15 Mar 2011 02:14:43 -0400

So in reference to my Tumblr…I havent done shit.

I’ve been discovering myself…Kinda. Exploring music, the people around me, and just stuff.

I neglected this thang thang…but I’ve been active verbally blogging, if that makes sense. I’ve decided that blogging is fun…if You have followers. Lol That’s partially why I go so hard on twitter. Lol I KNOW people follow me there.

See if you can find it ;) but I wont give up so quick on Tumblr…I just wont be so frequent on my posting.

when you go off on someone & they think you're joking.

Wed, 02 Feb 2011 04:38:20 -0500

badgirlswearchanel:

lolz

Wed, 02 Feb 2011 04:37:15 -0500

lolz

This song is crazy. I love it though. It’s appeared many...

Wed, 02 Feb 2011 04:34:16 -0500

This song is crazy. I love it though.

It’s appeared many times to me tonight. I feel like its trying to tell me something about myself. Cudi’s a musical innovator.

If Moving Mountains Wasn't Hard Enough....

Wed, 02 Feb 2011 04:23:58 -0500

So 1. I know I havent been blogging as expected of a person with a blog. My B, I gots stuff to do, stuff to tell, but still I cant make extra time in the day. 2. This whole blog is about the realizations that I come to about people and even myself.

So I’ve come to realize that I’m like a prism. I find that alot of time I let people and their moods and feelings shine through me and translate (similarly buy different) Someone could be angry or sad, and in me that would translate as agitated. Now this isn’t always bad because when people are feeling down or sad, I can read that and work help them. That’s eternally my life goal…to help people, despite what actions I may take at sometimes. It does kinda bother me that I allow myself to be SOOOO affected by people sometimes. It puts me in horrible situations and makes me feel bad…but I dont know what to do about it.

I find myself surrounded by people who love me, friends and my brothers. But nonetheless, I find myself never truly happy. And I’m always able to find something wrong, bad, or negative about myself or my surroundings or just life in general.

One could say I’m just tired of shit…an feeling like shit, which would be true, but I’m just tired. In general…

On a Brighter note, despite dealing with some set backs at Province Workshop lol I’ve been positively affected by my fellow Sinfonians.

NEW LIFE GOAL!!! I plan on becoming the National President of my fraternity, Phi Mu Alpha. People with poor intentions bother me. And if they let their horrible intentions run them…….then I cant respect them. And at times it seems like I am surrounded by the such.

Essentially, all I want to do is be happy. Who doesn’t? If you dont….then you’re lying. Dont do me. ANOTHER POINT comes up when thinking about that previous statement….I dont like being analyzed.

It seems that by the people I’m closest with, such happens very frequently. Why does the world always have to wonder? (though that may seem ironic, especially since I’m wondering and pondering on the concept itself.) Why do people feel compelled to always want to know everything about everyone and never tell anyone anything about themselves? I’ll admit, I do some of the presented, but not at a great extreme and I do it only to my friends because I car for them. I want to know what bothers them because I feel it, and I want to assuage their issues for them. I’m a martyr…at times. Why am I always getting analyzed. Besides feeling unworthy of being studied, it bothers me because I dont feel like some people deserve to know me, to understand me. Does that seem conceited? Well, who has 2 thumbs and doesnt care. “In My Mind” I think its rude to analyze people. I’m fine without it because I find myself being stressed and confused many times when I try to analyze people. My life would be and is SOOOOOOO less complicated and stressed when the looking into of others, especially without them knowing. I feel like its breaking down the doors of a person and waltzing your way into their inner self without permission.

That’s my soap box. And I just wanna leave this with a word from my inner self, the kid who sits and plays by himself wishing for friends or just nice people to be around…and as I typed that, I forgot what I was to write. So………

People are as fragile as they seem like they aren’t. And everyone should begin everyday with a goal, a plan, and a fitting attitude to get all of it done.

Signed,

The AfflictedCellist

P.S. I really like this quote: “Music lacks its power when the musician regards it not as a tool for the uplift of others, but instead as a means to his personal success and happiness.”

"It is not how much we do, but how much love we put into doing it."

Thu, 16 Dec 2010 12:22:09 -0500

““It is not how much we do, but how much love we put into doing it.””

- Mother Teresa

londonxbridge: My friend Laurenieeeezy AYYYYEEE MY GIRL PT...

Sun, 28 Nov 2010 05:20:29 -0500

londonxbridge:

My friend Laurenieeeezy

AYYYYEEE MY GIRL PT LAUREN!

wastedyouth013: Lmao , Yea pretty much lol

Sun, 28 Nov 2010 05:17:44 -0500

wastedyouth013:

Lmao ,

Yea pretty much lol

I dont like Link Posts

Fri, 05 Nov 2010 23:50:23 -0400

So I’ma do this like I’m on the book (facebook for you noobs that dont understand…*sidebar* like anyone reads your blog*) BUT Ya Boy Cudi is still at work. Enjoy it like I do. http://www.kidcudi.com/news/lend-me-your-eyesssss-1561.html TheAfflictedCellist.

KiD CuDi Talks Collabs On Upcoming 2nd Album | Kid Cudi | Rap Basement

Fri, 05 Nov 2010 23:38:21 -0400

KiD CuDi Talks Collabs On Upcoming 2nd Album | Kid Cudi | Rap Basement:

THIS IS WHAT I LIKE TO SEE!!!

though, this came out about a year ago. lol

This basically explains about 80% of my life for the past couple...

Wed, 03 Nov 2010 00:12:13 -0400

This basically explains about 80% of my life for the past couple of months.

Even right now, I’m dirt tired. And it seems like I’m forever dealing with SOMETHING! Tis becoming ridiculous. I caught up with a good friend today. It was a nice flash from the past, by past I mean this past summer which was quite legit. Bryan’s always something to laugh either at or with….or even both lol

We’re so different, but yet have so much in common. But back to the negative. I feel like shit. You know the usual, OH I’M SO SWAMPED WITH SCHOOL WORK! I NEED TO PRACTICE! I HAVE A CONCERT! I STILL HAVENT EATEN TODAY! I FEEL LIKE I’M BEING JUDGED!

Now see most people think I have a hard, badass exterior which SCREAMS! I dont give a fuck about what bitches think about me. That’s only partially true. I mean I dont, but every now and then, I let some BS get to me. I makes me feel weak. But I dont know why I let this happen to me!

Basically, I’m just having a bad day. Maybe one day I could tell the world. I doubt they would care. Signed….

TheAfflictedCellist.

Yep, that's my school.

Tue, 26 Oct 2010 18:42:46 -0400

Yep, that's my school.

Only Doug can educate.

Tue, 26 Oct 2010 18:32:54 -0400

Only Doug can educate.:

My dear friend Marcus knows how I like to dougie. So he sent me this here link lol

Go take a look at his blog why dont cha, www.marcus-mucus.tumblr.com

Take the Wheel

Tue, 26 Oct 2010 12:38:00 -0400

I honestly dont know why I am being tested so much in my life. I have friends that I’m close with, but little do they know, there’s something about me that they hate. Try dealing with that. It bothers me because I already feel like I lie to people on a daily basis, but not because I want to, but because I feel like I have to. Forget Society and its claims, pressures, and prejudices.

(mindless off topic ranting begins)

Friends are supposed to be there for each other, this is true. But if you need help ASK FOR IT!!! I may seem a little hypocritical because it takes a hurricane hitting for me to get to talk about things that bother me, but nonetheless, its what you should do. Dont come at me with an attitude and expect me to coddle you. No one does it for me, so I dont know how to do it either…at least I’ve yet to be able to. I guess its pisses me off because everyone’s going through stuff, yes I understand, but REMEMBER Everyone’s going through stuff. I myself love to be alone when I’m going through stuff, so if you’re like me ISOLATE Yourself, but let that be known. Say “I just really wanna be alone right now.” People will leave you alone like 2 month old turkey from Thanksgiving. No joke.

I’ll admit, last night I did what I probably shouldn’t to a friend…but I’m the not only one was wrong…I was willing to apologize, but it wasn’t accepted. F you! because obviously you dont care. If you read this….hmmm, I’m sure I’ve dealt with worse. Dont be surprised, this is what I do…Rant and be angry remember. I’m just an damn angry person. -I’m surprised people care what I have to say even half the time.

YAY COLLEGE -__- best experience of my life. Say sike would be such an understatement, its not even funny. I feel like I’m just a little rubber band, and college is some horrible kid that’s doing his best to pull me so hard that I break. Not only in half, but into as many pieces it can break me into. I’m holding up, I have “people in my corner” but yet…I feel like shit. Why might you ask? because Shit in life goes down pretty much on a daily basis

Again, I’ll admit I was wrong…I’m not an evil heartless person who wouldnt do so. But like everybody else, I have things that bother me and make me angry.

Why should I always have to walk around other people’s pet peeves, and no one take notice to mine?

I shouldnt. Like my father’s always told me, there’s only 2 things in life I have to do, they’re stay black and die. I’m starting to think that I also have to feel this f’d up array of emotions. Yay me -__- I guess that’s all for now.

(rant complete) Tis the end.

Signed……..

TheAfflictedCellist.

I love Lida and Melinda…they take New Yor-Chola too...

Mon, 25 Oct 2010 23:05:25 -0400

I love Lida and Melinda…they take New Yor-Chola too seriously lol

Like it. Love it. Laugh at it

As an animal follow up to 2 Bunnies 2 Cups, here’s a...

Mon, 25 Oct 2010 22:59:47 -0400

As an animal follow up to 2 Bunnies 2 Cups, here’s a Bulldog sitting on the couch lol

This is really funny. At first I didnt know why, but now I see...

Mon, 25 Oct 2010 22:45:11 -0400

This is really funny. At first I didnt know why, but now I see because its true. Sometimes white women just think because they’re “nice white women” lol The part with the “angry black girl” is the best part lol

about://blank

Mon, 25 Oct 2010 00:09:06 -0400

about://blank:

Lol My friend sent me this…kinda ironic, because I’m a hugger.

LMAOOOOOOOOOOO Dora Part 3…Pt. 2 was ratchet....

Fri, 22 Oct 2010 03:26:12 -0400

LMAOOOOOOOOOOO

Dora Part 3…Pt. 2 was ratchet. LEGGO!!!!!!!!!!!

THIS IS BULLSHIT!!!! Taco Bell needs to get with the program....

Fri, 22 Oct 2010 03:07:31 -0400

THIS IS BULLSHIT!!!! Taco Bell needs to get with the program. lol

srslytoriawhy:

AHAHA.

matthewtrevithick:

DAMN YOU FALSE PROMISES!